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sublimatedangelI really, really loathe Comet Cursor. I mean, even more than I did before which is quite a bit. I think I have eliminated both the adult Comet Cursors and the Comet Cursor eggs this time. Here's hoping my system stays stable. Sigh.
In other news, my MIL's cancer may have metastasized to her bones. We will have definitive results on it and the brain hopefully tomorrow. Hospice advised it is probably a matter of days... but the doctor said that may be premature. In any case, we started helping Karl make arrangements, as far as casket, funeral director, etc. I think it may be harder for me to be around him than around her... it just breaks my heart to see what this is doing to him. We were in to see her also - she is a bit more with us today. She would still have occasional --- confused moments? But for the most part, she was lucid enough to recognize and talk to us. Enough to tell us she loved us, to bless our marriage, tell me she was proud of me... enough to tell us goodbye. I think she knows she doesn't have much time left.
Mike is flying in and should be arriving tomorrow. I am hoping it will give my pooky someone else he can lean on. He is so much a protector - I worry that sometimes he doesn't lean on me/his family enough. Anyway, I think it will be good for him to have a friend right now.
I am not ready to go out there again, barring ---- neccessity. The plan for me is to stay up here and try to take care of some of the house stuff. Maybe I will take my mom those ornaments. I don't know... depending on how strong I am, I may just need fluff to take my mind away. I will get done what I can, but I'm not going to set goals and disappoint myself. I have to remember to take care of me, too.
In other news, my MIL's cancer may have metastasized to her bones. We will have definitive results on it and the brain hopefully tomorrow. Hospice advised it is probably a matter of days... but the doctor said that may be premature. In any case, we started helping Karl make arrangements, as far as casket, funeral director, etc. I think it may be harder for me to be around him than around her... it just breaks my heart to see what this is doing to him. We were in to see her also - she is a bit more with us today. She would still have occasional --- confused moments? But for the most part, she was lucid enough to recognize and talk to us. Enough to tell us she loved us, to bless our marriage, tell me she was proud of me... enough to tell us goodbye. I think she knows she doesn't have much time left.
Mike is flying in and should be arriving tomorrow. I am hoping it will give my pooky someone else he can lean on. He is so much a protector - I worry that sometimes he doesn't lean on me/his family enough. Anyway, I think it will be good for him to have a friend right now.
I am not ready to go out there again, barring ---- neccessity. The plan for me is to stay up here and try to take care of some of the house stuff. Maybe I will take my mom those ornaments. I don't know... depending on how strong I am, I may just need fluff to take my mind away. I will get done what I can, but I'm not going to set goals and disappoint myself. I have to remember to take care of me, too.
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Date: 2002-01-04 03:54 am (UTC)