Journal of an angel

Oh dear... I really have not been good about updating. Holiday madness has officially begun.

Wednesday: Got to airport way earlier than I needed to. Got my mom without trouble, got her home, made baking date for Friday.

Thursday was the funeral (thankfully noone I knew) so we got up bright and early, grabbed bagel goodness, and down to Modesto we went. I stayed home with Mum while FIL & Nate went back up for the funeral. Mostly keeping track of the medication for her and there in case anything should happen... it was a quiet day, and I finished up Cassie's bath basket stuff (bag & sachet) before she got home - oh wonderfulness. Also finished up the book I was reading. After Nate & Karl got back, we went home where we met up with Trudi briefly for gift exchange and pack mule duty assignations.

Friday: Baking goodness. Mom called at 10, I showered & got ready, went by Laurel Grove's pharmacy to pick up the industrial mixer for *gasp*horror* divinity attempts. Went over to mom's, we made up a big long list of all the cookies and candies we wanted to make, and list of what we needed, and went to store. Got everything we needed except a candy thermometer. Not peachy, but we got started. We have brownies, we have fudge, we have peanut butter cookies, we have peanut butter cookies with hersheys kisses, we have sugar cookies, we have thumbprint cookies with jam, we have german chocolate cake (okay, we bought that), we have macaroons.... we may have other stuff I'm forgetting. We do not have divinity, we do not have choc chip cookies, we do not have truffles. Ah well - maybe next year.

Saturday: went to last-minute-notification Christmas party at my Aunt Peggy's. It was good. Less gossip about who was in prison/running from the law/divorcing/knocked up and less variety of food (lots of sweet, no pickles/olives/such) but otherwise just like the Christmasses of my childhood. It was really nice. The semi-present father in my life has once again seemed to think that money will make up for the fact that some Christmasses I don't even hear from him. I suppose in some ways it does - just not how he thinks. Anyway, it was nice to see them and everyone else - I felt welcome there in a way I have not felt welcome in his life in a long time. And we are *supposed* to see each other more - we will see. And they missed my mom - which was nice.

In between all this, Nate has done alot of work on the hearth - it is all finished except for the contact paper, which will happen once the paint is dry. Hope to have pictures soon! But it's been a busy but happy weekend so far, and it was brought to my attention that I haven't updated so..... that's why. Love you all, have merry Christmasses, take care and such. Amy is sleepy and headed to bed.

Visited the in-laws today... Mum is looking relatively well, although she did have to have a transfusion today for anemia... but she seems fairly healthy and good, and has not been smoking at all. I am so very proud of her for that.
Got bored with the larva picture so I put up a new one until I find something I like - haven't taken new pictures, so looking through what I have to see if anything is worth resizing - I rilly wish they let us have bigger pictures. Am thinking about moving to paid account status but not sure how I want to change stuff, so haven't done it yet. Want to work on my corset but can't seem to find a chance to - we fill our lives up too much right now, I think I need a little more down-time. Of course, I probably feel that way because of the work situation - it sucks up all my energy and doesn't leave much for recreation. Gah, I feel like I've been complaining about it everyday though - hope you people understand I'm not always this much of a whine-baby.
Sometimes I wish we were kinkier just so I could have the emotional outlet that a scene can give - that's kinda funny to me in a strange way. I feel like my abilities to process stress have gotten messed up somehow, and that I'm holding some of it inside instead of letting it go - I feel tension that shouldn't be there. Or, it could just be how I am today and not indicative of an ongoing problem - who knows? I've noticed I'm using hyphens more than my typical ellipses - I wonder if there's a punctuation mark quiz that will offer insight into my psyche re: this change :) I think maybe I need a role model or maybe I just need to be around people more - I don't understand myself now the way that I used to. Lately it seems like I am always swinging between absolute contentedness (weird how you'd think the noun could be contention, but that means something totally different - course maybe I'm just supposed to use 'content', but I wouldn't want that to be confused with CONtent, so I'll use this even if it's wrong) and being unhappy with alot of things. I think this is just getting more confusing - ignore if it doesn't make sense.