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sublimatedangelThis is kind of a hard one, as I don't believe in living ruled by regret; the paths we've taken have led us to where we are today, and the only thing we can change is where we head next. But I'm giving it a try.
1. Possibly my biggest shame - when I was in school, I plagiarized/adapted something for an assignment. It was so unneccessary, too... even at that age, I was more creative and accomplished than to need to stoop so low, and it wasn't a big project/portion of my grade ; I was simply lazy and didn't want to bother. The teacher didn't notice, but I still regret it vividly.
2. Lost touch with my stepdad's family. We were incredibly close when I was growing up, but began drifting when they divorced (since holidays/etc were divided up) and that only increased when my stepdad and I were estranged. I think at the time, I wasn't sure I was welcome, which in retrospect seems ridiculous. I'm thankful that our lives have come together again since then, but I missed out on a lot of years that I didn't have to.
3. Kept quiet so much in class. This is mixed, because I'm also glad I did it and gave other students a chance to take part in discussions, but it's probably why I have a hard time putting myself and my opinions out there today.
4. Um. Neglected/killed plants? I don't even know how many I've doomed and thrown out.
5. Lost track of people. I spent a long time with the "If you love something, set it free" philosophy, and a lot of people left and never returned. Perhaps it was not meant to be, but I've come to realize that sometimes, some people want/need to be chased down when they start to drift away.
6. Forgotten stuff. Not that I had any choice in the matter, but I mourn every memory dulled by time or lost entirely.
1. Possibly my biggest shame - when I was in school, I plagiarized/adapted something for an assignment. It was so unneccessary, too... even at that age, I was more creative and accomplished than to need to stoop so low, and it wasn't a big project/portion of my grade ; I was simply lazy and didn't want to bother. The teacher didn't notice, but I still regret it vividly.
2. Lost touch with my stepdad's family. We were incredibly close when I was growing up, but began drifting when they divorced (since holidays/etc were divided up) and that only increased when my stepdad and I were estranged. I think at the time, I wasn't sure I was welcome, which in retrospect seems ridiculous. I'm thankful that our lives have come together again since then, but I missed out on a lot of years that I didn't have to.
3. Kept quiet so much in class. This is mixed, because I'm also glad I did it and gave other students a chance to take part in discussions, but it's probably why I have a hard time putting myself and my opinions out there today.
4. Um. Neglected/killed plants? I don't even know how many I've doomed and thrown out.
5. Lost track of people. I spent a long time with the "If you love something, set it free" philosophy, and a lot of people left and never returned. Perhaps it was not meant to be, but I've come to realize that sometimes, some people want/need to be chased down when they start to drift away.
6. Forgotten stuff. Not that I had any choice in the matter, but I mourn every memory dulled by time or lost entirely.
