Further negativity... mood swings are going to drive me crazy pretty soon...

[sublimatedangel]

Everytime I've got my emotional balance back, someone gives me another shove...
Sigh.
Yes, I'm hating my job again and wishing I didn't have to work. Though compared to what poor Stasha is having to put up with, I guess I should count myself lucky. And I try to think of it on a karmic level - with everything bad that's been happening, something really wonderful must be about to happen to balance it out. I'm cold, and my heart feels like someones been at it with a smashed brick. I'm so unappreciated here - guess I should have left while companies were still hiring. I'm scared to now - somehow I don't think being unemployed will help my emotional stability right now. I feel like some poor pack animal who keeps getting teased with the carrot but ending up with the stick. I'd like to see somebody else here carry my load without dropping it.. I really doubt they could. Oy - I get the feeling someone's trying to tell me to quit trying to be happy - every time I manage it, I get kicked back down again by something.

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(((((((((((((((((((((((Amy))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[hughmanatee.livejournal.com]

ACK!!!! It's okay, honey, things will get better :) I promise.

It will get better

[missmorte.livejournal.com]

I think the lesson we have learned this week is that our companies don't give a shit about us, we are only a number. So.. since the economy is in a fragile state right now I think we just need to push through it, work our asses off, then when things get better we should start looking for other jobs.

Oh yes.. or if you keep up with my LJ, we could always win the lotto, all call in rich and quit, then open up our own boutique...

Whee

Re: It will get better

[sublimatedangel]

The thing is, my company is schizophrenic. One week they love me and want to do everything to help me out, and then the next week they think I'm taking advantage of them. Rrrr... I know they are treating me this way because they can get away with it... they pushed me too far back in Feb/March and I was going to quit - they were all shocked I was leaving and kept meeting with me to find out what they could do to make me stay, and everything was peaches and cream for a few months... but I think with the job market as it is now, they don't need me to stay quite so desperately, and they know I'm less likely to leave, so they're trying to see how far they can push me. :( Ah well... It will get better, most likely when they push enough of us too far and lose alot of people (a semi-annual occurence) and then really need me to stay. I'm just frustrated by having to prove myself over and over again.

As to the lottery - ah yes, that would be nice... however, my odds are not very good since I don't buy the tickets... So for now, I just have to put up with it til it passes.