Is it Friday yet?

Oh thank goodness, it is.
I am a very very sleepy girl today... had a hard time getting to sleep w/o my sugar to cuddle with and then woke up again when he got home at 4... I need to get up about 7:30 to get ready for work, but he usually wakes up around 6:30ish so that's when the alarm is set for... went off this morning and of course, he was not gettin up with 2 hrs or so of sleep, so I hit snooze... dammit, snooze ought to last for at least a half hour... I can't even fall back asleep in 10-15 minutes... so when it went off again I fiddled with all the buttons and dials (yes this includes the volume and channel knobs - I was really tired) until it stopped making noise. Figured I'd just kinda doze and keep glancing at the time to make sure I didn't over sleep. Finally it percolated through that it had been 6:35 for an awfully long time... yes, my darling ones, I managed to switch it over to the Set-The-Time feature, which of course froze the clock... checked another clock and it was of course, 8:15 which is when I have to be at work... ugh. Threw on clothes and got here late again.... I'm really not being a very model employee lately. So I am just now starting to wake up a bit (not happily either) and I have all kinds of work from yesterday... It's just not been a good week. I'm much happy it's about over...

Mmph!

So, I'm on my break at work... which has been interrupted several times by people that really really need to tell me something RIGHT now and can't wait 5 min til I'm back to working or leave me a voicemail or whatever. So I'm already a little miffed. Some background info: we're assigned certain times to go on break as we work in the phone-answering business for the most part, and they need to make sure everyone's not gone at once. So it is my TIME for break. I also have a little card that goes up that let's everyone know if they should glance in that I'm on break (I have them for lunch & vacation and stuff too. Most of us do). What I'm eventually getting to is that one of the higher-ups just crept up very quietly behind me and scared me to death asking if I was on break. I just nodded and turned back around, but now that my heart is staying within my body, I'm very irked - she was not in the hallway or even my cubicle doorway, she was right behind me and I'm *betting* reading my journal over my shoulder. SECOND of all, I'm mad that she even asked in the first place - of course I'm on my break! I'm doing something personal instead of professional, it's that time, and the big "On Break" sign is up - wtf do they think, I just play all day and all the work does itself?? Ugh... disgusted with the management, very upset that she was reading personal stuff of mine, and I have way too much adrenaline from her creeping up right behind me. Rrrr... I need to learn to focus negative feelings like this and act upon them - alot of the people here will walk all over you if you don't stand up for yourself. Me, I'm a "treat me how I've earned to be treated" person... dammit, I shouldn't have to be a bitch to get treated with respect.

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life is so cruel and cold sometimes
i don't know how we do not bleed when we are cut this deep
my faith is in miracles and not in logic
i send my request to those that listen
fail me not